The engagement party...he thought it was this weekend so to make it up to us, he and his wife are taking us to dinner. So with that being said, I have to say...I'm not mad at him; but I am not going to stop him either.
I am not that person that thinks because you didn't come to my party that you suck or you didn't come to the hospital after the baby was born so you suck, you didn't go see my Mom when she was sick...and so on. We are who we are, we know our friends and family enough that when they forget or don't show up...we don't hold it against them, it's most likely due to their own lives getting in their way. So for the record Marcus...you suck!
Just kidding, we love you and we definitely do not hold it against you, forget the wedding and I will cut you brotha!
J
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Why Did I Change My Mind?
Honestly? Because he's a good man and I'd be stupid to let him go. I mean after all of these years and everything we have been through, to throw it away. We've never broken up (well not in the last 6 years and that only last 3 months), we make up while we are fighting. I still get giddy when he calls, when he smiles, when he comes home from work and when I look at his pictures. I miss him when I am away visiting my sister (we talk on the phone the whole time I am there) and I miss him when he is gone too.
So I had to weigh the pros and cons...
Con....having a baby after 35
Pros...all of the above and much much more!
So now that we have paid off all of my debt, we are paying off his debt (we are already almost done) and buying him a new car (FINALLY)! So around Christmas time we got engaged...so weird he's now my fiance. A whole bunch of drama (from David and Celia of course, because we actually made plans and paid for them while they were just toying with the idea and didn't have anything set up or paid for), we just wanted a small exchange of vows with our parents present (and my kids of course) and they swear we were trying to do something to them.
Right, I decided to spend the rest of my life with a man just to piss YOU off...yeah no one was really thinking about you.
ANYWAY! We decided to have an engagement party instead and pushed the wedding date out to next February which gives me more time to really plan things out. I'm very excited, I got the dress picked out, Carmen is making my veil, Eileen is making the flowers for my hair and Lulu is making my bouquet! We are getting married at his parents house in PR. His mom insisted after the fiasco with his brother; she was so embarrassed, but I told her it's not her fault, it's whatever. And that is the last time I am giving them any attention.
The engagement party is tomorrow, I'm really excited, I love his family, they are so nice and so much fun!
Signing off to Skype with my family!
Sunny
So I had to weigh the pros and cons...
Con....having a baby after 35
Pros...all of the above and much much more!
So now that we have paid off all of my debt, we are paying off his debt (we are already almost done) and buying him a new car (FINALLY)! So around Christmas time we got engaged...so weird he's now my fiance. A whole bunch of drama (from David and Celia of course, because we actually made plans and paid for them while they were just toying with the idea and didn't have anything set up or paid for), we just wanted a small exchange of vows with our parents present (and my kids of course) and they swear we were trying to do something to them.
Right, I decided to spend the rest of my life with a man just to piss YOU off...yeah no one was really thinking about you.
ANYWAY! We decided to have an engagement party instead and pushed the wedding date out to next February which gives me more time to really plan things out. I'm very excited, I got the dress picked out, Carmen is making my veil, Eileen is making the flowers for my hair and Lulu is making my bouquet! We are getting married at his parents house in PR. His mom insisted after the fiasco with his brother; she was so embarrassed, but I told her it's not her fault, it's whatever. And that is the last time I am giving them any attention.
The engagement party is tomorrow, I'm really excited, I love his family, they are so nice and so much fun!
Signing off to Skype with my family!
Sunny
Really?
If I tried to get you all caught up on what has happened in less than 2 months, I'd be here all night. Let's just say that I am really surprised at how quickly a person can turn on you. I really did still love and care for David, now I have given up. I even pushed aside the nonsense with Celia so that we can all just move forward and be a family.
But she isn't like that, she really has people believing that I am 100% wrong. I know I am not. What really happened? Cecilia asked if there was a way to find out if "people" were checking her MySpace page; I told her let me take care of it. I wrote something (something pretty stupid I have to add) and of course, we got a reaction confirming that her page was being checked, now I must admit what followed wasn't exactly the nicest thing to do or say. I admitted that you know, I tried getting the door open so that I could formally apologize to all parties involved, simply because it wasn't nice.
I sent an email. No reply. That was all I needed, that is how I knew that it was not about what I said, it had nothing to do with me being "mean" or "racist" even though Latino isn't a race, it's an ethnicity so I guess I am an Ethnist? Celia's issues with me had nothing to do with the banter on MySpace and more to do with the fact that I had befriended David's flavor of the minute (sorry Cece) when they broke up.
She referred to my home as an undesirable place for her son (now who isn't being very nice?) and I am sure the word Bitch has crossed her forked tongue when the topic of me came up.
But that was over 4 years ago! Really? <---look it's the title of my blog!
Now David is talking smack about me so easily as if it were all a lie, as if it were all a front just to use us. So I guess he used us? It hurts...a lot, but I move on, I have to.
I can only hope and pray this whole thing resolves itself. I'm trying not to be angry, but I can't help it...I am a little mad, but it will pass, life is too short to hold on to something like this.
But she isn't like that, she really has people believing that I am 100% wrong. I know I am not. What really happened? Cecilia asked if there was a way to find out if "people" were checking her MySpace page; I told her let me take care of it. I wrote something (something pretty stupid I have to add) and of course, we got a reaction confirming that her page was being checked, now I must admit what followed wasn't exactly the nicest thing to do or say. I admitted that you know, I tried getting the door open so that I could formally apologize to all parties involved, simply because it wasn't nice.
I sent an email. No reply. That was all I needed, that is how I knew that it was not about what I said, it had nothing to do with me being "mean" or "racist" even though Latino isn't a race, it's an ethnicity so I guess I am an Ethnist? Celia's issues with me had nothing to do with the banter on MySpace and more to do with the fact that I had befriended David's flavor of the minute (sorry Cece) when they broke up.
She referred to my home as an undesirable place for her son (now who isn't being very nice?) and I am sure the word Bitch has crossed her forked tongue when the topic of me came up.
But that was over 4 years ago! Really? <---look it's the title of my blog!
Now David is talking smack about me so easily as if it were all a lie, as if it were all a front just to use us. So I guess he used us? It hurts...a lot, but I move on, I have to.
I can only hope and pray this whole thing resolves itself. I'm trying not to be angry, but I can't help it...I am a little mad, but it will pass, life is too short to hold on to something like this.
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